"Go Big or Go Home"...personal translation, Go Big and Stay Home

What's a girl to do when her days seem to be filled with voids? Yes, emptiness. Darkness. Motionlessness. The literal sense. 

(Before I go any further, let me clarify any selfish, ungrateful or dismissive attitude expressed in this post is of the temporary kind. I am truly thankful, typically, on a daily basis) 

And therein lies my point. Even when your rise and shine is a little lackluster, there is always a speck of positivity to hold onto. Admittingly, some days your grip needs to be a bit tighter. 

So here is my most recent dilemma; Where exactly is my light? Again, literally, but also metaphorically. How then do I begin to move? Setting wheels in motion and filling these voids with purpose and connection. A reconnection really, with myself!  To scoop Becky up off of the floor and start taking better care of her. And then continuing to care. 

Maintaining a connection within is truly taking care of yourself, but reconnecting is a whole other task. It is in this REconnectiion where all the work takes place. And for me personally, knowing where to begin is by far the most difficult. 

I feel change coming. I feel scary, bold, unnerving, even uncomfortable in some ways, change ahead. 

I do believe I may just welcome it in! Good morning change, would u care for a warm steamy cup of "bring it on"?! 

*note-My appoligies for the cryptic self serving post here but, I actually do feel I'm going somewhere with this. Hang in there for me a little longer...more to come, I assure you!